Because it’s another item on my to-do list.
Because at the end of December I took time to focus on how do I really want my 2018 to look like. I listed all the things which I like doing already, and all the new things which I would like to try. I have created rough plan on what do I want to do more of and what milestones I want to achieve. I’ve created a yearly plan and then split it into months. I have picked a small part of those lists and committed to work only on few selected items without worrying that I might be missing some other great opportunities.
I have realized that while worrying whether I should choose this course or another, this activity or that of my friend, Chinese language or Portuguese – I do not move forward in any.
When looking back on my path and evaluating the choices i’ve made – I do not have any regrets except one: I could have done more if I had courage to simply stick with my choice.
But it’s never too late to start again.
Learning new language is my daily state. I ALWAYS learn a new language. If you check my duolingo profile – I have 5 languages in progress, however none of them is finished.
I have a list of 6 or 7 languages which would be nice to know.
Which one to choose?
I have very good basis of German, as I have been studying it at school. Last year I started to learn Spanish, so I have small level of it too. I am also curious about hieroglyphs, so I was dreaming to learn Chinese.
All 3 languages are considered widely-used and valuable. Very wise choices. You might assume I have picked one of them.
You are wrong. I chose Portuguese.
From zero level. For no specific goal and reason except that I love how it sounds. Ever since I heard it for the first time in my life from my cousin’s 2.5 years daughter, which was over 10 years ago. Then, I was exposed to this beautiful language even more when I moved to another country and met enormous amount of foreigners.
I am in love with this language but it didn’t seem smart to learn it.
What for? How can I use it later?
Although it’s also widely spoken across the world, but comparing to those 3 – it loses the battle.
But I, same as Elizabeth Gilbert in “Eat, pray, love”, decided to devote this year to pleasure. To please myself as much as I can, and try things which I genuinely love doing, without any “purpose” behind.
I don’t know what I am doing, to be honest. My life feels a bit like a cow trying to ice-skate. But I know that following “what is useful” did not bring me an outstanding life. In fact it brought me nothing except inner fight: I know I don’t want to do it, but I must, if I want money/happiness/beauty.
That’s why I am trying new approach.
I remember when I was in school, I was studying English and German at the same time. I loved English more, but German was considered more prestigious – our school was German speaking gymnasium. So I followed the crowd and participated in language competition, the prize of which was students exchange with Austrian schools for few months. For someone who has never been abroad it’s a dream coming true!
I didn’t win the prize. I was disappointed at that time, and somehow automatically redirected my focus to English. Little did I know that in 10 years I will need it for my first job in IT, and in 15 I will need it in order to move to Czech republic. English is the language of IT. German was never required.
Perhaps by pursuing German my life would be good too, who knows. But it turned out to be great anyway, so I can’t even imagine better outcome.
There are no right or wrong choices. There is just decision to pick what feels better and stick to it. And faith that each choice can lead you to greatness.
This year I’ve decided to make all my choices based on whether I want it or not, as much as I can. And see where it leads me.